大約在一個月前發現自己的"無感症"實在是太誇張，
大部分的情緒是平靜或是開心，
這樣不好嗎?
我就覺得好像有點不太對勁兒! ((我家的小孩好極端，不是太憂鬱就是完全沒感覺 XD)
無感症的副作用就是看似不在乎，
心底深處到底在不在乎我也不知道啦!
上上禮拜去了SOPW=SOP Worship，
到了最後Sandy牧師做了一個醫治的宣告，
此時肉體完好的我突然想到讓我覺得驚奇的無感症。
無感症，被醫治好嗎? 我內心猶豫了一下，
我很不喜歡"感覺到難過"耶，無感症也挺好的。
後來我是以"一直無感症恐怕跟神的關係是不太可能更親密的"這個理由開始醫治禱告。
然後，俗話說的沒錯，
"小心你所做的禱告，會成真喔"
立刻，不久後遇到一個極大的挑戰，
讓我真真實實的有了"感覺"。
最神奇的是............
我媽那天竟然莫名其妙打給我，說了一些從來不曾對我說的話，
然後思怡緊接著在我FB上留言，
在看到留言那刻瞬間明白是上帝把拔藉著他們來安慰我~
一切真是太神奇了。
之後不曉得會不會再遇到令人崩潰的事情，
就拭目以待了............
ps. 其實我有默默地在跟上帝禱告說...我的病好了好了，這樣真的夠了..... XD
ps2. 所謂極大的挑戰就是Health Service考不好啦~~~ XD
然後我今天聽到一首歌，覺得差不多就是這件醫治無感症的小總結了~~~~~
What does love look like? is the question Ive been pondering
What does love look like?
What does love look like? is the question Ive been asking of You
Once believed that love was romance, just a chance
I even thought that love was for the lucky and the beautiful
I once believed that love was a momentary bliss, but love is more than this
All You ever wanted was my attention
All You ever wanted was love from me
All You ever wanted was my affections to sit here at Your feet and tell me
What does love look like? is the question Ive been pondering
What does love look like? If all of life comes down to love then tell me
What does love look like? is the question Ive been pondering
What does love look like?
Then I sat down a little frustrated and confused
Your fire of life comes down to love. And love has to be more than sentiment,
More than selfishness and selfish gain
Then I saw Him there
Hanging on a tree, looking at me
I saw Him there
Hanging on a tree, looking at me
He was looking at me looking at Him, staring through me
I could not escape those beautiful eyes
And I began to weep and weep
He had arms wide open, heart exposed
Arms wide open, He was bleeding, bleeding.
Arms wide open, heart exposed
Arms wide open, He was bleeding, bleeding
Loves definition
Loves definition, was looking at me
Looking at Him. Hanging on a tree
I began to weep and weep and weep and weep
This is how I know what love is.
And as I sat there, weeping, crying, those beautiful eyes
Full of desire and love. And He said to me
You shall love Me..You shall love Me.
With arms wide open, heart exposed
With arms wide open, bleeding, sometimes bleeding
You shall love Me.. You shall love Me..
If anybodys looking for love in all the wrong places
If youve been searching for love, come to Me. Come to me.
Take up your cross. Deny yourself.
Forget your fathers house and run. Run with Me.
Cause you were made for abandon your heart and listen
Cause you were made for Someone greater, Someone bigger, so follow Me.
And youll come alive when you learn to die.
And He said to me
You shall love Me. You shall love Me
With arms wide open, heart exposed
With arms wide open, bleeding, sometimes bleeding
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